The Pursuit of Happiness

Its been one of those months. One of those years, actually. And I keep coming back to how I really should get back into writing. Not because I want people to read what I write, but just because I used to really like it, and do it a lot. I had passion when I wrote, and it made me happy.

So, its July 2013. I am starting a new life, making up for past mistakes. And its time to begin writing again.

Since I began this journey over 4 years ago, so much has happened and changed. I've been a college student, a girlfriend, an assistant, a housewife, and finally, an assistant again. I'm making my own way now, and doing for myself when I haven't had the courage, or Chutzpah, as my mom would say, to be for myself before.

And let me tell you, its scary being in the real world. When you've spent your entire life sheltered and protected, going from one protective and controlled environment to another, the culture shock sends waves through your system that rival the tides. And its not easy recovering from that.

Its not easy to give up the worry and let go for the time being. Its not easy to do what must be done, especially when you don't want to. Its hard to step out in faith and do what you believe is right, even though everyone around is screaming how wrong you are.

Sometimes, you have to do for yourself. In life, happiness doesn't pursue you. You pursue it. Its a right that every human being has, and yet, most refuse to honor that privilege. We are "endowed by our Creator with certain unalienable rights: Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness." And yet, so many of us chose the path of least resistance, we chose the path of laziness, and at the end of that path is nothing but misery. If you want to be happy, you have to want to work for it. As one of my neighbors likes to say, with his southern/Californian accent "You gotta do whachya gotta do."

Life is meant to be lived. Not to sit there and let it you pass by. Its a kind of wonderful, and all you have to do is wake up and stop being lazy, and do something, to see. Once you begin, there is no turning back. Your life is your own, and no one can live it for you.

So live. Don't be lazy. If your miserable, and feeling trapped, the second the opportunity arises, change it. You're the only one who can. We are the lucky ones. We have the chance to do better then those around us, better then our parents, if we are willing to work.

Pursue your happiness. No matter what it is. Even if you have to step out in faith and go and do and be something that you have never done before. Fortune honors the brave. The rest will fall into place. Have the chutzpah to make life worth living.